things i want to do with u:
- take u to a place with low light pollution so u can look at all the stars
- make out
- dance by ourselves in the middle of the night
- go to a cool place
- bathe together
- walk around a museum and hold hands
- play the sims using the most ridiculous strategies
- make out
- build a blanket fort
- make out in said blanket fort
- love you forever
February really felt fast, suddenly it’s March! It’s maybe because of the one week winter break. But then again it could be because I’m looking forward to so much things this year. .. or wait shouldn’t it be the opposite? Well, I know for sure that I wasn’t all that busy these past few weeks, besides from school I don’t really do…. shit.
But let’s summarize it in bullets and pictures.
Anyways, I’m getting more and more excited for all the things that is going to be one month closer since February is almost finished! *screams*
Have a nice day!
"To feel so much emotion for one person is … actually not bad."
Him and I started going out November 11, 2013. Well I shouldn’t probably use the phrase “going out” cause first of all we’re not and we can’t, since he’s from another country. Hence I shouldve said “we started a “relationship”,… yeah this is more appropriate.
And no I don’t want to label it as”long distance” cause I don’t hear people fucking saying “OH IM HAVING A SHORT DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP” a relationship is a relationship no matter what. (Oh the rant, I couldn’t help)
Back to the main point.
If i were to describe “him” there won’t be an end to this post. But I would say That he’s an adorable human being, and I do not know how to express my gratitude that I got to know this amazing person.
I never really set a standard for what I look for men. Cause I know we’ll always end up going for the complete opposite anyways. Though I can say this for sure. He is what I’m looking for. Heck I didn’t even know he’s what I’m looking for. Sometimes I even think that he’s way too good for me. But I’m a bit selfish so I’ll just take advantage of the situation for as long as I can. Haha
He is like the cherry on top of the ice cream and the star on the top of the Christmas tree of my 2013, he made everything extra better.
He makes me feel so much emotions that I didn’t even know that it’s possible to feel every single damn day. I didn’t believe that there’s someone that can light up your day every single time, but it’s hard to deny it when someone actually does the magic.
I’m happy, scared, and thankful, but most of all I’m madly inlove.
I have no clue what to do. Besides from school and my usual routine I don’t think there will be some new shit going on this year. Well, I’m going to be 18 this August, that’s one thing. Though to be honest I’m really not that excited being 18 and all, cause unlike other teenagers, I don’t like drinking or smoking nor doing some legal self destructive shit.
I have none, well I gave up having new years resolutions long time ago, but I still think about it. Though this year I really have nothing.
I just want to get out. Like away from this hole that I live in. This April we’re going back to the Philippines for my early 18th Birthday celebration. I’m excited… well I want to be excited. Right now all I feel is anxiety and fucking “I DON’T WANT TO DO THIS” Though I’ll try to be positive throughout the whole trip. I have the whole year to be negative anyways.
..negativity, I really need to shove positive stuff up my throat. I have been way negative these past months, heck these past few years.
Well this is a summary.
Happy New Year.
*Badum tss!, waddaup Star trek reference!*
Though in all seriousness, I am unable to function normally. My eyes are tired. Headache. I am just tired. My face wasn’t even snapchat worthy this morning. I slept around 2 and woke up 5.
You know when you think you have control over your own emotions and your psychological state? Sometimes you just fucking don’t and cant. You can be aware, sure, but it’ll be there until you do something to resolve the issue.